Hello… yes, yes, it’s been a while… oh how I’ve missed sitting down and emptying my thoughts down and getting to share them. School… aaarrggghh. Past two months have been crazy. Never been so uncertain about anything before. Hardest learning curve so far. I’ve had to put a lot of things in perspective you guys. I feel so defeated but no… we’re fighters, we take a few blows but we shake it off and keep swinging, you know, like the saying, “unless you puke, faint or die, keep going.”
I did not follow through with getting my ducks in a row. That’s why today, I’m on about commitment, now this could be in so many areas so I’ll break it down in a few ways based on my struggles.
School. Most times I’m just floating through feeling like I’m not even sure why I’m even going through all this ‘til I’m faced with the need to be better, do better, be great, learn, acquire knowledge then it makes sense. And even with that I’m faced with the struggle to stay consistent with study, keeping my grades up.
Blogging. Setting a goal, let’s say a post a day or a post a week, bi-weekly, twice a month and actually sticking it haa! My weakness. I’m trying though, I’m a work in progress, bear with me.
Relationships. I love love. I cannot say this enough. But I’m afraid, not because I feel like I can’t commit but because I’m afraid of letting down my guard, being let down, giving a 100 to someone who’s not even a fifth as vested in it as I am.
Personal goals. These could be weight loss/gain goals, savings, an assignment, project, sport, language, self-improvement, less drinking/partying or doing more of it… so many plans yet so many setbacks we encounter, constantly procrastinating... *sticks out chest* not any more.
My next challenge... Learn to commit. Actually try to stick to a goal or schedule and follow through with it.
I did not follow through with getting my ducks in a row. That’s why today, I’m on about commitment, now this could be in so many areas so I’ll break it down in a few ways based on my struggles.
School. Most times I’m just floating through feeling like I’m not even sure why I’m even going through all this ‘til I’m faced with the need to be better, do better, be great, learn, acquire knowledge then it makes sense. And even with that I’m faced with the struggle to stay consistent with study, keeping my grades up.
Blogging. Setting a goal, let’s say a post a day or a post a week, bi-weekly, twice a month and actually sticking it haa! My weakness. I’m trying though, I’m a work in progress, bear with me.
Relationships. I love love. I cannot say this enough. But I’m afraid, not because I feel like I can’t commit but because I’m afraid of letting down my guard, being let down, giving a 100 to someone who’s not even a fifth as vested in it as I am.
Personal goals. These could be weight loss/gain goals, savings, an assignment, project, sport, language, self-improvement, less drinking/partying or doing more of it… so many plans yet so many setbacks we encounter, constantly procrastinating... *sticks out chest* not any more.
My next challenge... Learn to commit. Actually try to stick to a goal or schedule and follow through with it.
I came across this a quote which sort of helps me; 'Commitment is doing the things you said you would do, long after the mood you said it on has left'- Trent Shelton
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