Unspoken Thoughts

Growth… I was sooo eager to grow up and be an adult laden with responsibility, wisdom, bills, stress! How hard could it possibly be? The caterpillar seems to adjust pretty quick, it just comes out of its cocoon and bam, it knows how to fly, when to fly, what to eat, what not to eat so for a human that’s way more developed than a caterpillar, growth should be a breeze right?................. WRONG!! *sigh* The 20s man… high off the teenage years, just about over puberty, self- discovery, eager and filled with the zeal to live life, be wild all while trying to get yourself together and learn to be independent/be your own person, emancipated and doing a good job at messing it all up and making wrong decisions….. I can’t. Don’t know what I was thinking wanting to be older. Take me back to pre- school when my biggest struggle was deciding whether to colour my teeth purple or play in a pool of mud. So, with my birthday having been 2 weeks ago on the 1st of June, a few things came into p

Hello… yes, yes, it’s been a while… oh how I’ve missed sitting down and emptying my thoughts down and getting to share them. School… aaarrggghh. Past two months have been crazy. Never been so uncertain about anything before. Hardest learning curve so far. I’ve had to put a lot of things in perspective you guys. I feel so defeated but no… we’re fighters, we take a few blows but we shake it off and keep swinging, you know, like the saying, “unless you puke, faint or die, keep going.” I did not follow through with getting my ducks in a row. That’s why today, I’m on about commitment, now this could be in so many areas so I’ll break it down in a few ways based on my struggles. School. Most times I’m just floating through feeling like I’m not even sure why I’m even going through all this ‘til I’m faced with the need to be better, do better, be great, learn, acquire knowledge then it makes sense. And even with that I’m faced with the struggle to stay consistent with study, keeping my grade