Unspoken Thoughts

Look at him, tall and handsome, and his smile, oh his smile, big and vibrant. He comes my way and I don't dare for a moment think it is I he could possibly want. I am wrong, for it is me that he has come all this way for. He opens his mouth and there is that smile. He starts to speak and I am smitten. Standing there wide eyed I hear nothing of what he is saying to me. I soon realise he is awaiting a response. Shit!  Why wasn't I paying attention? I stutter as I ask him to repeat himself as I think to myself what a fool I must look like. Our brief exchange comes to an end and I'm left dazed even though he is gone and I, left to my lonesome. It's been weeks since our first exchange and much has happened. What I thought to be a mere crush  has blossomed into much more. I crave his presence, when he comes around I fall into a deep ecstasy filled trance. I lose myself, but in a good way, I let go of all my inhibitions, my guard goes down I look at him and I know that for

Hey! It's been a minute.... yes, a really long minute 🙈 I know. But I'm back!! Woop woop. The festive season is upon us and we all want to look good because why not?? So I'm here to help y'all look good on a budget so you can have enough money left over to go out and celebrate.... you're welcome, you know I gatchu *insert high five here*. So, last year I had written an article on thrifting, or salaula if you may, on the Trendition-Z page, follow the link >  HERE  < . I gave a few tips on how to go about it so you will definitely find it useful. (Read it!!) A while ago, I happened to find myself in DAPP because they had clothes going at K8... K8!!! How could I walk past that?? So I got the vest and knit sweater in the thumbnail picture above for K8 each and felt pretty good about my purchase. Problem is, the vest was way too long as you see above. Ended up looking like a really short dress so it was idly sitting in the closet until I got a light bulb m

Google images. Source: Pinterest The pursuit of love… not human love but Godly love. That’s what I need and where I have been going wrong. All this time I have been thinking the inner void and loneliness was because of my singleness and that maybe once I had a partner things would change. Boy oh boy have I been wrong 😔 I have just recently realised that I have been lacking something. Something nothing I or any other human can provide me with. I have been going through a cycle of things, overwhelming emotions. All of which have led to the making of wrong choices, a shift in focus to all the wrong things.  Besides trying my best to avoid sin, I am human and find myself slipping out a few lies every once in a while, bad speech, ill thoughts and intentions. And even though those things are somewhat easy to tame/control I have been unable to maintain a steady relationship with God. Yes I’m Christian, yes I read my Bible every day, yes I do good and avoid “great sin”, yes, yes, y

I'm starting to sound like a broken record with my fear of love yet lover of love paradox speeches but *shrugs* I can't help it. Today though I'm sharing my ummm thoughts... ones I have more often than I ought to for a single gal 😔 So anyway.... I've always had a soft spot for "cute couples", you know, the ones who always seem to be happy and in love all the time. Affection filled pictures that I can't stop staring at.... well despite the cute and mushy stuff I also like the downsiee of relationships that no one ever shows or shares. I like to experience it all. And I picture it all the time. I want the next relationship I have to be filled with enough certainty that I'm able to get comfortable enough to live out my thoughts. I want to be there for my man as much as he is for me. I want him to wake up to my baked treats for breakfast, come home from work or a day/night out to a hot plate of my cooking, back rubs or foot rubs after a long day w

Google Images "I, ***, take you, ***, to be my lawfully wedded husband/wife. To have and to hold for: Better or worse, Richer or poorer. In sickness and in health... 'Til death do us part" Scary those few words are... 'til death??? I mean that's a binding life long commitment that scares the heck out of me. What if things don't go as planned? What if this your lifetime partner happened to be the wrong one? What then? I know you can't just quit but then again you don't stay just because it's what is expected of you.... or do you? And with kids involved? oh my goodness don't get me started.  So, simply based on my past experiences which by the way weren't so great, I have been left unsure and afraid because well... here is a guy, he appears to be everything I'm looking for so I let my guard down and allow him into my heart/life. Few months in and it's all good. 1 year in and still going good. 1.5 years in and boom... jerk

So before this ‘blesser’ fad popped up we had the reign of the side chick. And we know how the internet is the praise temple of all things wrong/bad (don’t deny it, you know it’s true). Anyway it bothered me then and it bothers me now. What bothers me more are the women who attack the women that their men cheat on them with, I’ll explain. First of all, the person who owes you their loyalty is your partner NOT their mistress. The reason you’re hurting is because of YOUR PARTNER and not the other woman. The other person owes you zero loyalty and no explanation, they mean nothing to you and therefore have no way of causing you hurt. Your partner on the other hand, different story. You care for them, their actions have a bearing on your feelings, they promised you their love and loyalty. Who approached the mistress? Your man. Who made a move? Your man. Who lied to you? Your man. Who deceived you? Your man. Who’s in a relationship with you? Your man.  Some women will say, “The mistress m