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My Heart's Inhibition

Relationships... *sigh*... boy oh boy do they suck! Don't get me wrong though, I loooove love *googly eyes* (yea I haven't gotten the hang of emojis on here), I'm such a mushy hopeless romantic it's probably sickening to most, heck, it's sickening for me too!


 Right, where was I... umm yea... They suck! Why? Well the uncertainty. Now this uncertainty can be on so many things and if there's anything that irks me a whole lot it's not being in the know. Just sitting there in an empty dark room not knowing when the lights might go on or if there even any lights installed. Just sitting there, day in and day out hoping to see just one flicker of light or the even the faintest beam of light just so you know there's hope and that you can go on... That right there... That compromise where you go from expecting head lights to a light bulb to a flash light to a lamp or candle light to a tiny flicker of light for a split second, a faint beam that can barely light up a room the size of a matchbox only to spend what seems like forever in darkness filled with regret wishing you had just left that room while you still had some strength in you.

 I should probably explain that.
  • Having to like someone and being with them not knowing if at all they reciprocate those feelings. And if they do, not knowing whether or not that person's feelings are of the same level of affection as yours........ That would be important information to find out before jumping right into a might-be-bottomless pit, look out! there's might-be-alligators down there!

  • Falling head over heels in love with someone expecting it to last a lifetime and hoping the other person doesn't just pierce through your heart, leaving it to bleed through the hole they just created........ Serves you right for expecting the best of a human, we aren't really reliable, well we could be but meh *shrugs* ain't nobody gat time for that

  • A distant crush, having the other person never find out how you really feel, leaving you to die inside..... Such a wuss! Tell em!!

  • Being with someone and not knowing whether you really like the person or whether it's just their company or conversation you enjoying.... Oh yeah that could be really confusing.... NOT! quit messing with 'em and set your emotions right, selfish!

*tiny italics being the other super annoying voice that just can't keep quiet in my brain (these aren't tiny but it said these words too *smirks*)

Besides all that... Love is a beautiful thing, and all the negative thoughts and fear to experience it shouldn't really keep you from it. And if you do get yourself a pile of broken heart pieces that just ought to teach you who/what to keep away from and a little extra caution not complete avoidance so sweep 'em up, dust 'em, and let the strong cohesive force of attraction love brings hold them together so it can be imprinted with two arms as one on your soul

told y'all I was mushy lol

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